“I don’t know anything with certainty, but seeing the stars makes me dream.”
― Vincent Van Gogh
To be honest, I can’t even remember the last time I was on this platform. It’s been far too long. Life has been a whirlwind, pulling me in so many directions, and I kept telling myself, I’m too busy. It’s fascinating—and a little heartbreaking—how easily we find excuses to push aside the things that bring us peace.
I moved to an entirely new country, immersed myself in a culture so different from my own, explored breathtaking places, and found inspiration in ways I never expected. But somewhere along the way, I lost touch with myself. I didn’t realize just how exhausted I was—how much energy I spent pretending to be okay.
So, I reached for the one thing that has always been there for me: my paintbrush. The moment I touched the canvas, I felt it—how stiff my hands had become, how my mind was still trying to control every stroke instead of letting it flow. Frustration crept in, whispering doubts, but I didn’t stop. I kept going. And even though I still feel out of practice, I know I’m finding my way back.
There’s something incredibly healing about pouring all the heaviness onto a canvas, feeling the exhaustion settle in after a long painting session. I had forgotten how much I missed it—how much I needed it.
I’m still in the process of setting up my new creative space, shaping it into a place that feels like home. Right now, I’m watching my latest piece dry, already feeling new ideas bubbling up inside me. Gosh, I’ve missed this so much.
The painting you see below is one of the first I have created since my long break, and it holds so much meaning for me. It feels like a quiet conversation with myself, a step back into something I have deeply missed.
Thank you for stopping by, for sharing this moment with me.
Kat
KitKatArt 